Monday, July 19, 2010
haix, lets tell myself all and all over again
"I am a loser..."
and again, and again, and again......
nowadays, i keep thinking about u, but so what, everytime i think about how u said that i have made u so suffocated, these 4 words come to my mind everyday. i wish i have lots of courage, enough to make me go up to u, and thrash things out, but that would mean suicide right??? u said it will take some time, but ur replies are, well, dead. compared to the past, which are lively, this saps the motivation to sms u, plus ur fb page, i don wan to end up being the one that pesters u, i really don wan, so, ppl can say it's just a small problem, that's because i nvr told them the big picture. when u don know, it's best not to say...
seriously, now whenever i see u, it really feels like a lot of knives piercing through. i really wan to let u know how i feel, but if i sms u, what if u think i'm pestering u, like a psychotic stalker. i really don know la... it all lies down to knowing ow a girl thinks, but then again, who knows? it's really like a brick wall, and i keep banging my head onto it...
on a side note, i may not say it, but i appreciate ppl who truly care, no matter how small the care is, it's better than nothing.
every year, same old mistake, same old conclusion, same old story, same old sadness, but why is this the saddest so far?
i think, because this time, i've gone all out, but still reached the brick wall and my destiny of being a failure
will u ever get to know, how much i truly care about u
how do i strike the fine balance between being concerned and being a pest???
i really don know......
save me...
may i find this ans, in somewhere i belong
alone... -_-
::9:16 PM
