Friday, July 16, 2010
hmmm, today...
got back results slip, and it says
GP 56% C
Econs 18% U (:D)
PW B
Chem 54% D
Math 66% B
Phy 48% E
Rank points: 56
haix, shld have done much much better, after looking at the tests papers and my silly mistakes, but i must say, i exceeded expectations for GP, and i'm now in bridge 1, woooooo, and bridge 1 lecture was so exciting, i may now start to look forward to thursday for GP lecture lor, but then again, the teachers say they gonna split the bridge 1 into 4 groups, into groups of about 45-46, and i'm rather excited to see which people i'm group with, preferably with people that i know, and not some weirdos, haha lol
and i played soccer today after pe, as keeper, sian... wished i can play as a defender more, i wan be a better defender
and watched sleague on tv and it was a great match, 7 goals, shiok to the viewers :)
but then again....
as the week comes to a close, i've been doing a lot of thinking recently
seriously, i am someone who always repeat the same mistakes over and over again, that makes me a repeat offender right, and repeat offenders receive heavier and heavier sentences right, so, that means i shld be given the death penalty like, long long time ago liao right, and yet, i'm still alive, what does this mean, this means that i've been living on borrowed time for a long period liao lor, living on time that doesn;t belong to me, and whatever u borrow, u have to return... that includes time.........
seriously, i really hate life now, i;m always screwing things up, i;m always causing great friendships to be in jeopardy, i'm always causing problems for myself, this is simply 自作孽!!! 自作孽是我咎由自取, 不值得同情.
i hate banging my head into the brick wall, knowing that it will hurt, and please, all i wan is a chance, people always tend to keep the chances away from others, come on la, everyone deserves a second chance, right???
i;m starting to resign to the fact that my destiny is true. the outside is noisy, enthu and happy, but i am the greatest pretender alive, being in pretence is perhaps the thing i do best. u pretend to be happy, with nothing going wrong. i've been pretending for so long, it's like a day job......
right now, based on the current situation, there is nothing else worth staying for, having lived on borrowed time, i think it's time to return it. the earth will still revolve even if there is one less person, so, whether i go doesn;t make the difference
because u give me the cold shoulder and avoidance, it just aggravates the wound, and the wound just keeps on getting larger and larger, hurting me more
destiny depicts me to be a loner, evidence supports it... 6 boys in 0109, 3 have partners, 2 have scandals, 1 has absolutely nothing, i'm always cut out and isolated from such nonsense, why me......
fro past till now, it;s always been cutting me out whenever possible, i don wan it, but u know u will suffer it, cos destiny cannot be avoided, unless u can face it head-on.
nothing worth staying for...... goodbye world...
::10:00 PM
