Friday, March 4, 2011
i really like this blog, right now, it's like a mental companion
first post after bookout, yeah, it's been so long, but life's been tough recently
life at home sucks big time, some freaking personal problems that i don wan to say to anyone is plauging my life damn bad. my home used to be a place i look forward to, now, i am not sure of its existence anymore. as it turned out, it never existed, and my views about the word family for the past 18 years have only been one-sided, it was never reciprocated at all :(
sometimes i just think about tekong, BMT is fun, though there's lots of shit, at least we recruits go thru it tgt, that's the experience i want to keep, at home, right now, i have forgettable experiences, i don wish to go home at all, it's damn lonely and it tears up my soul :(
many ppl most likely don't know how i feel, i don know who to look for to ever feel happy again, right know, i feel damn good, and happy when i'm with my friends, but family, right now, this word cannot exist in my dictionary, cos it's impossible
okok, talk about today, a level results day
H1 econs C
H1 GP C
H2 Phy A
H2 Chem A
H2 Math A
on the bright side, i did what i wanted, i got the 3 As, i passed my gp and econs, and i did not get a grade worse than D, so i was not feeling sad about my results. but as i looked at the IGP, meaning the cut-off for uni courses, the ones i want to enroll in demand higher standards :
seriously, now i learn that one cannot be so narrow minded when making choices, initially mt choices were business, or math related courses
right now i'm seriously looking at every course and see whether it suits me, or i suit them, so my state of mind right now, is confused
i am confused about life, and everything :(
someone help me :(
::11:59 PM
